Now I'm facing a problem. We've been together for a month and he hasn't asked for anything from me. He keeps sending me pictures of me in expensive clothes. He told me it was a rule that I would send him three pictures every day. At first, he told me it was for God's sake because he didn't like the way I wore my scarf or went out. I'm sure I'll do it like my husband, so I asked him.

 I hid my work from him but he saw the joy I was experiencing and I never asked him for it, I didn't have the money to ask him for it, he found it in saline and the kind of care I get from my parents. He said don't wait too long, if it takes an hour he will call me and bother me to go home and come to us, it's for God's sake since I have never had an impure love and selfishness like JB's, all the boys I have dated are older than me from the one who gave me five years except for Muhammad who gave me five years. So I never looked at him in person until we were about two months apart.

Like my father, I would call him first to tell him I was sleeping and we would say hello. He was not working at his shop selling sewing materials. He would leave at nine in the morning and as soon as I got up, I would definitely wake him up to call his number. He would have to wake up and tell me.

 "So if you wake up, you have to wake me up or what should I do to you? You often wake me up. “If you don't want me to wake you up, then you have to turn off your phone, but today I want to talk.”

That's it!

So he agreed and we charted. I asked him, “Please tell me, have you never been in love? I see you're always so excited about me.”

He took a deep breath and we started talking like this “I had a love affair in the past that I wanted to break up with in a hurry. I loved her very much. Since we had her, I was more worried about her than her. The girl in the neighborhood, let's call her A'isha. At first, she loved me but later she started humiliating me. If I didn't call her, she would never call me. If she did call me, she would only say something to me. Later, the humiliation was too much for me to bear.”

But now you're not with me, or am I really jealous?

 He replied that they were not together but he saw the status of her getting married too, "Hey Noor, I want you to delete her number from your phone because since she doesn't love you, I still love you." He assured me that he deleted it and sent me her number. I said, "What should I do with it?" That's when I realized that the love between the girl and the boy would definitely make me fall in love with you. I showed JB pure love. I knew I would get into trouble with my parents because even if they drank, they would never agree to me marrying this boy and my third brother. But there was no water for me because I love him. He is the center of my whole life. We named each other Noor and Hayat. I felt ashamed of him and I never called him by his name. I know that any love that is not built on a good face always has problems. The first thing that upset us was that I always called him a lot but he didn't call me that day. I was sitting and went to my girlfriend's house. I said, 'Hello,' he replied on WhatsApp after we greeted each other. I said, "Hey, I always call you a lot but nothing happened." He seemed to be waiting for him to start talking. I'm talking to you.

 "You're not going to bother me, you're not going to bother me, I have a shop and people will come to buy things in Guna. If I ignore them, I'll follow Miki and we'll talk. You're really bothering me, that's your wish, listen to my voice, really change your mind." It made my body feel cold on the way home. I called him and said, “I'm sorry.”

I was heartbroken and I told him, “You're lucky I called you because I took you away from the boys. You know that if I put up with you, someone younger than me won't be able to put up with you. And you're treating me like an unprivileged person, so you say love is necessary.”

You know, I don't know if anyone will not see me with respect. The amount of time I spend pleasing you doesn't tell you that I have lost those I love. You look beautiful.